so;

- im a freak, i take pills to be less of a freak, i loved my canon 1000d, now its unsatisfying, i need to work and yet i cant, the world is a blank canvas and i cant paint for shit.

- I NEED MORE! -

i am so understimulated, my life is so grey. between doing nothing at school and attempting to get into full time tafe, my life is a blur of smoke, faces, laughing, crying, sex, drugs and rock and roll... and a whole lot of food.

my deviantART gallery is full of amateur self ' portrait ' shit myspace photos and the photos which have nothing to do with me are also unsatisfying. there is no inspiration, everything around me is posed and fake, there is nothing for me to work with... everyone conforms, everyone abides by rules (that who set? why do you listen to them? why are they of importance?)

i need to find my muse, i need to find a light. a light that will just shine upon the road which i need to walk in order to become who i want to be, or who i was created to be.

/ end rant